I mean, when I began asking God for His peace and JOY, I just never anticipated anything like this! I've tried for YEARS to grasp the whole "joy of the LORD" thing... YEARS. But suddenly... without warning, I asked, and I RECEIVED. Surely in the past my heart wasn't prepared for this joy. I promise you, if you're not ready for it, you can't receive it. Because it WILL change your life! I walk around with a song of thanksgiving in my heart. I feel completely transformed. I feel like a NEW WOMAN. Doesn't God promise us that the old (wo)man will pass away, and we will be a new creation? (2 Cor. 5:17)
Want to know what's crazy? I do NOT miss that old woman! AT ALL! I'm so happy with this new woman. Even in the midst of a financial crisis that, while is not as bad as it was before, is still very REAL, I am so HAPPY! My marriage is better than it's ever been, I am so ENAMORED with my hubby.... I have more patience with my children.... I have such a larger capacity to LOVE than I ever thought imaginable. This is ALL HIM, my friends. There's no way my begrudging heart is capable of this type of joy and love on its own!
There's this "song" in my heart. I can't get it out. Even being so sick and so BROKE can't get rid of it! It goes a little something like this: